Tuesday 27 January 2009
Goodness, why is everyone either pregnant or popped it out already?
About me
I do not like change. I do not like change. I always walk this way. I do not like change. I like memorising facts. I like memorising facts. Bible, Premiership stats. I like memorising facts. I’ve got stickerbook pick. I’ve got stickerbook pick. You, you talk too quick. I’ve got stickerbook pick. I do not like touch. I do not like touch. You, you talk too much. I do not like touch.
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Monday 26 January 2009
Hipshaker Photos:
sophie and toni
tom
lucy and kenny
toby
tyra and lucy
tom and guy
toby, kenny, charlotte, me, tyra, rob and tom
rob, charlotte and kenny
sunny
toby, lucy, tyra and kate
me, lucy and guy
lucy and i
lucy and kate
toby and toni
toby, kenny, toni, me, rob and tom
I went to my first Hipshaker and it was a pleasant and lovely change from the norm. I got horrendously drunk which is as far away from a change from the norm as you can get. The music was 60s mod rock, classics and motown, it was fair to say we were the youngest present by about 7 - 10 years - which was a laugh, actually. We all went back to Lucy's house after to continue till the wee hours. Pictures to come: Tyra brought her lovely Canon 400D and it was well utilised.
Sunday 25 January 2009
"Brighter Than Sunshine"I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine.
::listen and watch
The memories associated with this song are some of the best and worst I have.
Labels: 2007, 8.30pm, aberdeen, barfly, bass guitar, first year, london, summer, truck festival, veganism
Friday 23 January 2009
Scandals - just like old times. It was great! Booth photos:
james, kirsty and henry.
tom.
nick, tom and bethanne.
andy.
hardip.
laura-jo, phil and ille.
sunny and toby.
alex, charlotte and me.
toni and sophie.
henry - thinking about hendrix.
Thursday 22 January 2009
According to Anthony, my new hair looks like:
OMG. He ruined it.
BILL FRANCIS is on his way to my house.
YES!
YES!
It's only just hit me how much I miss him. I am going to drag him to Scandals so we can hang with a load of indie hat/skinny jeans types and bug the dj. I'm going to savour the last few months we have of close proximity.
BILL FRANCIS!
Tuesday 20 January 2009
Whilst eagerly anticipating the well planned, eloquent, articulate and powerful speech of the next president of the United States of America, I recalled the story of Theodore Fulton "Ted" Stevens, former President Pro Tempore, United States Senator and the second longest serving Republican Senator. This was a speech he gave whilst authorising the Communications, Consumer's Choice, and Broadband Deployment Act of 2006, which meant that he was to govern Internet Policies in the USA.The Speech in full:
There's one company now you can sign up and you can get a movie delivered to your house daily by delivery service. Okay. And currently it comes to your house, it gets put in the mail box when you get home and you change your order but you pay for that, right.
But this service is now going to go through the internet and what you do is you just go to a place on the internet and you order your movie and guess what you can order ten of them delivered to you and the delivery charge is free.
Ten of them streaming across that internet and what happens to your own personal internet?
I just the other day got, an internet was sent by my staff at 10 o'clock in the morning on Friday and I just got it yesterday. Why?
Because it got tangled up with all these things going on the internet commercially.
So you want to talk about the consumer? Let's talk about you and me. We use this internet to communicate and we aren't using it for commercial purposes.
We aren't earning anything by going on that internet. Now I'm not saying you have to or you want to discrimnate against those people
The regulatory approach is wrong. Your approach is regulatory in the sense that it says "No one can charge anyone for massively invading this world of the internet". No, I'm not finished. I want people to understand my position, I'm not going to take a lot of time.
They want to deliver vast amounts of information over the internet. And again, the internet is not something you just dump something on. It's not a truck.
IT'S A SERIES OF TUBES.
And if you don't understand those tubes can be filled and if they are filled, when you put your message in, it gets in line and its going to be delayed by anyone that puts into that tube enormous amounts of material, enormous amounts of material.
Now we have a separate Department of Defense internet now, did you know that?
Do you know why?
Because they have to have theirs delivered immediately. They can't afford getting delayed by other people.
Now I think these people are arguing whether they should be able to dump all that stuff on the internet ought to consider if they should develop a system themselves.
Maybe there is a place for a commercial net but it's not using what consumers use every day.
It's not using the messaging service that is essential to small businesses, to our operation of families.
The whole concept is that we should not go into this until someone shows that there is something that has been done that really is a viloation of net neutraility that hits you and me.
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How the Republican party let someone who has absolutely no idea, deliver a speech like that is beyond me. The internet is a series of tubes indeed. I remember watching it with Ed and Rob and crying with laughter. That is definitly how not to do it. Obama, we are waiting.
Monday 19 January 2009
I have never felt so alive than when I'm in his arms.
there is a translation here.
ten songs that have been rinsed this afternoon:
:: justice - dvno
:: thomas andersson - washing up [tiga remix]
:: the bloody beetroots - butter [draft]
:: jojo de freq - pop this reverie
:: mgmt - electric feel [justice remix]
:: soulwax - krack [nite version]
:: surkin - white knight two [laidback luke remix]
:: deadmau5 - the reward is cheese
:: sebastian - walkman
:: midfield general - disco sirens
Friday 16 January 2009
I can't sleep. The whole caffeine free thing is meant to help with my sleep patterns as well as my erratic heart rate, but all it's doing is making me lucid dream (wtf, since when did Franz make a song about lucid dreaming?), thus scaring the shit out of me for the whole day after. I'm also experiencing hypnic jerks and my old friend RLS.There used to be a time where I could party all night and work all day, then party all night again. What happened? I'm now a narcoleptic mess, ive slept in so many different beds over the past 2 weeks because I will just conk out anywhere due to not having the energy to make it into my own bed. People are starting to get the wrong idea! I am, literally, dead to the world.
Thursday 15 January 2009
Shit. Am
EDIT!
Yes Zach Condon, I am coming to see you with this fool
Saturday is going to be pretty amazing. Group of us with tickets to the last bugged out. Hair appointment at nine then travelling up to London. Me and H will be going shopping beforehand, I hope to purchase a few bits that have eluded me as of late. Might meet Louise and Jackie for a drink in London too, gutted neither of them could get tickets.
Wednesday 14 January 2009
YESYESYES MORE MORE MORE>>>dancing / having wine with my dad and his workmates / malaysian food / south park / louis theroux / boats / dinner dates / spring cleans / photography / running / starburst orange drink / yuppies / hands / electro / curly hair / pillows / road trips / money saving / estate agents / job recommendations / training / laughing / leamington / oxford / edinburgh / london / paris / getting crunked up / clean fun / marshmallows / customising / cheap clothes / tin tin / french language / free stuff / fred perry / phone calls / letters / emails / pulp fiction / waking up laughing / uncomplicated fun / drawing / tomatoes / dresses / moving away in 5 months!
NONONO MORE MORE MORE>>>
duck / short hair / brown hair / jeans / drama (ha!) / phone bills / filing / late nights / cold bed / short showers / rain / expensive taste / ignoring important phonecalls / running away from awkward situations / public transport / vodka / illicit pharmaceuticals / mtv reality shows / green tea / responsibility / internet shopping / essex / southampton / bordon / scaled down apperance / facebook / giving 'the eye' / glaring when being given 'the eye' / calling it 'the eye' / fair weather friends / fried chicken / baking / german language / being lazy at work / lucid dreams / being in the red / staying in portsmouth after 5 months!
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Talented Perfection, thy name is Benoit.
Monday 12 January 2009
Bye Portsmouth.Next weekend i'm going to Rome to hunt down Surkin.
Nice knowing you.
Friday 9 January 2009
What kind of news do you find out when you're jumping up and down with a mini-bar cocktail in hand between pillow mountains on 2 queen-sized beds in your dad's 4 star Marriott Hotel suite which is to be his home for the next 3 months?
That your other Grandad has died, of course.
That makes both Grandad's gone in the space of 6 days. I've never seen my dad so inconsolable. His colleage was in the room with us when we got the phone call, as the rhree of us were just about to go to dinner. He kindly offered his condolences and I thanked him and said I would take care of my dad as he left. I broke the news to my mother and uncle, who both started crying on the phone. This was the grandad I knew, the first time I went to Nigeria, when I was 8/9, my dad said that my grandad was losing his sight. Turns out he had age related wet macular degeneration, ironic as I now work for the company who discovered the cure. I took him my NES and duck hunt game as I wanted him to have something fun to play with before he couldnt see anymore, he absolutely loved it, 80yr old man, merking clay ducks on the NES was the best thing I saw on that trip, followed by my mum chasing our dinner (a chicken) round the courtyard for 20 mins. When I went back to Nigeria a couple of years ago for my Dad's 50th, I went to visit my Grandad again, obviously by this point his sight was completely lost. He doesnt speak any english, so I just sat and said the little Yoruba (Nigerian) I knew, and we had a good translator back. My Grandad used to work in air traffic control - he could tell me what time my plane had come in from heathrow just cause he heard it, and could tell what direction it came from. They say that loss of a sense enhances the remaining. I think they are right.
That your other Grandad has died, of course.
That makes both Grandad's gone in the space of 6 days. I've never seen my dad so inconsolable. His colleage was in the room with us when we got the phone call, as the rhree of us were just about to go to dinner. He kindly offered his condolences and I thanked him and said I would take care of my dad as he left. I broke the news to my mother and uncle, who both started crying on the phone. This was the grandad I knew, the first time I went to Nigeria, when I was 8/9, my dad said that my grandad was losing his sight. Turns out he had age related wet macular degeneration, ironic as I now work for the company who discovered the cure. I took him my NES and duck hunt game as I wanted him to have something fun to play with before he couldnt see anymore, he absolutely loved it, 80yr old man, merking clay ducks on the NES was the best thing I saw on that trip, followed by my mum chasing our dinner (a chicken) round the courtyard for 20 mins. When I went back to Nigeria a couple of years ago for my Dad's 50th, I went to visit my Grandad again, obviously by this point his sight was completely lost. He doesnt speak any english, so I just sat and said the little Yoruba (Nigerian) I knew, and we had a good translator back. My Grandad used to work in air traffic control - he could tell me what time my plane had come in from heathrow just cause he heard it, and could tell what direction it came from. They say that loss of a sense enhances the remaining. I think they are right.
Sunday 4 January 2009
sidenote:Facebook makes everyone paranoid, neurotic, shivering messes. it ruins friendships, places strain on relationships and destroys bonds. it makes you see things that arent there, especially when you cant see that they arent there. Facebook escalates the severity/importance of things you CAN see. Facebook makes you think the worst and fear even more. It makes people look/sound/feel better than they are, and look worse than they act. it shows people in the coldest light possible. it can destroy the very idea of the ones you care about the most, and in the worst cases, it can destroy your idea of yourself. Facebook changes the way people act towards eachother. Facebook can breed contempt. it brings into the domain of life things that wouldnt feature for shit usually. Facebook warps people's sense of time perception. minutes can feel like years and 5 years can feel like yesterday. Facebook is a breeding ground for undesirables. Facebook can ruin people. Facebook can ruin lives. Facebook can ruin you and me. Facebook can kill. Facebook HAS killed. Facebook will kill again.
It's 21:11 on a Sunday evening and i'm in bed listening to Radiohead. It's the time of year again where I look back and try to put things into perspective. This weekend has again, been a blur, doing things I probably shouldn't have in places I'm not meant to be, walking home from said places the following evening thinking "So what happens now?". I'm not going to set any resolutions this year, but instead some life goals.
:: stay off the smack. what happened? pharmacology - the STUDY of the effects of drugs on the body, not the PRACTICE. really used to have a passion for this sort of stuff, i used to be upbeat, lively. now i'm permanently monged. it's heart wrenching because only a year ago I was happily content with guilt-free wholesome fun depicted by the photos above. now, escapism has become a prison.
:: money will ruin you. debts out of my earholes and student load interest has jumped up for no flipping reason. expense after ill-needed expense. if there was ever a time to learn financial prioritising, this would be it. i could start with placing my change in my wallet instead of throwing it over my head when im at my computer.
:: you'll go to hell for what your dirty mind is thinking. this one i've been quite good at recently. i'm not one for karma and fate, but i am one for faith. so basically, the more disrespect i throw onto the world, the more i will recieve, not by some natural world order realigning the equilibrium of vitality or some other reader's digest like, homeopathic bullshit like that, but because I will fucking deserve it. So i'm trying as hard as I can to see the best in everyone and not to focus on their faults.
:: take a step back and look at the bigger picture (this one is from my dad). In a year's time, where will I be? What will I be doing? What steps have I taken to ensure I fufill the plans I have? Have I made plans at all? What I tend to do is focus on the academic side of things. I would be the one waking up at 6 am to catch the first bus to the library to read before the first lecture at nine, then at 5, back to the library for some good reading till 12. then back home. now i am about 2 steps away from my dream job, but there are other parts to life besides the career which have been severely ignored. I didn't know it was such a big deal to my parents until my dad had a 40 min chat with me when he drove me to Waterloo station. It was one of those talks where I had pre-set replies of "yes Dad", "mmhm" and "*whimper*", I sat on the train home and have never felt as lost as I did then.
I fucking miss having a clear head, but mine seems to be bursting full of bias and inaccuracies. My second Grandad died on NYE - i never met him or knew him, but I still had the urge to apologise to him for not feeling much more than a "oh, that's sad news". 2009 is my 22nd birthday, my sister's 18th, my first year in full time work, my ordination into TOPRA (the organisation for professionals in regulatory affairs), my applications to masters, my (hopeful) completion of an A-level in French, my first full caffeine free year, a move away from portsmouth, a move away from England maybe.
Nothing left to say but : WE SHALL SEE.